FaizalAzwin : Aweens Bridezilla Moments

Definition of Bridezilla :

>> The word bridezilla is a merge of the words bride and Godzilla

>> A bridezilla  is a difficult, unpleasant, perfectionist bride. (Wiki)

>> A bride-to-be who, while planning her wedding, becomes exceptionally selfish, greedy, and obnoxious.

>> The tricky thing about bridezillas is that their transition from sweethearts to creatures from hell cannot be foreseen, not even by the future husbands.(Wordspy) 

is Aween a Bridezilla?

1) Time sanding atas pelamin, my eyes (rabun pun nampak ok!) terpaku kat baju ash (my emcee) and i saw dia macam tak pkai badge corsage tu! trus mata aku mencari wina (adik aku yg incharge mende tu) nak tanye apsal ash tak diberi badge! 

trus aku bisik kat haida (pengapitku), "ash tak pkai corsage!!", 

haida dah cam "ish, ada kot tu, jgn fikir dah, senyum!"...

candid aween muka mcm nak bunuh org je kat atas pelamin tu.

haha. i am such a psycho

*turun pelamin lepas tu pegi suh wina
 cari kotak corsage tu and bg ash
(memang nada bossy gila)

2) Masa sanding, makan beradab, berjalan, etc, sentiasa cuit and bisik kat sygku, 
"yang, make sure senyum!"..

3) the nite before nikah was a total of 2 nites aku tak tido at all, my grilfrens/bridesmaids sume duk sound "aween boleh tak pegi berehat jap, pegi tido, ko pengantin kot!", 

aku diam meneruskan isi door gifts nikah dlm bag kertas..then ain sound lagi.."aween, pegi tido jap boleh? aku tngok ko cam letih gila"

air mata aku mula menitis (kata emo), pasal aku tak sanggup tido tngok my girlfrens buat kerja aku sampai dorg sendiri tak tido, nangis berjujuran air mata kat situ ok, then terpaksa dorg pujuk aku (smbil sound jugak, hehe),

"apa tujuan ktorg kat sini if bkn pasal nak tolong ko?" (ok bler tringat rasa nak nangis semula), after that sume malas nk paksa aku tido, dah biasa dgn prangai aku yg emo :D tapi aku tido gak 20minits, seblum haida n wna sampai dgn brekfast McD ktorg

4) pagi nikah kul 7am, duk angkut kain & seterika nak balut meja nikah tu, kna sound dgn ain again

"win, ko pegi mandi skrg! biar aku buat tu!", aku jawab, "takpe2, kejap je"

then trus ain rampas kain tu..hehe, eh ke ini ain yg bridezilla? hahahah

5) Pasal Bunting & Banners, patutnya, sue from Qisdhi  dah cakap dia leh antar the buntings to me on friday morning, but aku nak hari khamis jugak (eventho aku yg bru order brapa hari seblum tu, kira lmbtla kan aku), so aku ckp kt sue aku nak g amek jugak sendri petang khamis tu, nasib baik kt sri rampai je, sanggup meredah jam (psl ada pasar malam) semata2 aku nak jugak gantung malam tu..craziness!

6) mengamuk kat Dzul de'classique tu, okla bukan mengamuk, tapi perli2 dgn nada sarcastic aku and trus buat muka tak puas hati kat situ. tetap nak suh dorg tambahkan balik every-single-manik (i am originally a drama queen anyway, haha)

7) Semua hantaran aku nak gubah sendiri, bukan pasal ape, pasal aku nk control design, jadi aku boleh guna bunga baby blue yang aku dah lamaaaa nak try tu, hehe..jadinya aku yang buat the main design and semua lah, lagipun aku suka yang simple2, kang org lain buat dgn renda2 segala..monyok plak muka aku time nikah tu nanti .heee, but of coz kak fid tolong sambung my initial design 3 of the remaining dulang which mmg cantik gila!!

8) Lepas aku purchase apa2 barang baru yang aku akan jadi obsessed dengan benda tu for at least 4 days (contohnya badge, bunga tuk dulang hantaran, veil, cincin etc). Dalam sehari aku akan belek satu-satu, susun kat lantai, amek gambar, then simpan elok2 dalam kotak, 2 hours after that, bukak kotak, then ulang routine yang sama..heee, thats how puas hati i am with stuff aku beli/buat sendiri, ini bukan bridezilla kan? ini psycho namanye, hehe

(ye sang suami aku pun naik pening tngok, ada satu time tu sebelum bertunang, aku keep on kluarkn cincin tunang tu dri kotak and letak kat jari, satu hari tu terlupa cincin tu still kt jari, memang membebel dah dia tngok aku nye carelessness..ehehehe..)

9) Hafal & masih hafal sapa yang datang and/or tak datang wedding aku, hehe..

masalahnya aku ingat everything, like sapa yang tak datang tapi dah wish or bg hadiah or at least had the curtesy to tell me why they couldn't make it..yang dijemput tapi xde response langsung on why they didn't come or even wish me 'selamat pengantin baru' i admit , sakit hati jugak sket (over -emo, yes i know that too)
 part yang kawan rapat (or aku je yang ingat rapat) yang kata lupa wedding aku tu, tah, aku terasa la jugak, totally salah sendiri, pasal silap categorize kawan,. haha, dlm hidup aku je dorg penting, tapi bukan vice-versa (oh aween ur such a loser!),

and note: yang penting bukan hadiah, its the thought that counts, geddit?..

 10)  Masih tanye kat Jenal what happened during my reception, like "dorg main ke song list aku kat dewan? aku x ingat/dengar", Jenal jawab "main la kot, aku mase tu sebok jaga parking", then I still keep asking him (degil!) and Jenal kna jawab "aween, wedding ko dh lepas kot, biar jelaaaaa"....aween jawab: "yeah, but we didnt do any post mortem, so i still wanna know"..ahhh, aku ni mmg annoying :D

11) Masa kat atas pelamin, sempat lagi bagi arahan on the spot and macam2 lagi yang aku tak hingat. sumpah aku takkan ingat pun if bukan pasal gmbar candid. jeez

12) pernah mengamuk , baling-baling barang dalam bilik and menangis sepuas-puas hati sebab terlampau stress fikir pasal duit, sekali je la i let my non-rational side effect me (lain sangat rasanya when u have to pay for totally everything. be thankful if ur not like us.heh)

13) merajuk & marah sayang 2 days before our solemnization, memang time tu marah teramat sangat memang xle kawal perasaan. it was wednesday nite right after i had finished my final spa session, syg picked me up from my bridal and wallah, he went to get a new haircut while i was at the spa.

dah tau dah dia nak potong rambut but i specifically told him 'jgn pendek sgt' skali aku masuk kreta and tngok, terus marah2 & i even cried ok (over nak mampus bila ingat balik, hehe) so lepas dah marah & syg dh rasa bersalah gila, i kol wina mengadu-damba mcm biase, sampai rumah ada dira, i mengadu kat dira pulak and she pujuk's me saying, 'aween! sgt okla rambut faizal tu! jgn risau, its nice laaa!'

dgr dira ckp macam tu barula rasa cam ok sket, at least org yg bru tngok rambut syg boleh ckp 'its ok' and yeah it actually was ok ;p ....kott..

(still looks too short on the sides but hey, whatever, hahah)

14) there were tonnes of times I would feel like giving up, especially when seeing other b2b's, how pretty they were, how wonderful their prep was.. it made me feel..so un-layak to be a bride, I really believed that I wasn't pretty enuf to be a bride, and I'm still not pretty, but my sis, bestfrens & syg knocked some sense into me before I got cold feet ;p yang penting we love each other. apa yang penting? haruslah kerjasama ;)

15) akan push semua org supaya ikut the timetable that i had made. card kawin mesti kena siap by July! (rule aku buat sendiri) maka aku akan follow-up, sms, call, pesture semua org yang berkenaan supaya siap pada bulan yang aku dah set..mesti, wajib, kena!

16) After wedding reception dah over kat dewan, makcik-makcik cleaner dah datang tuk mengemas, i took off my shoes, sangkut ekor baju pengantin aku over my shoulder and start organize pembawakan balik hadiah ke rumah. Also lari2 angkut barang susun depan pintu tuk menyenangkan my committee tuk angkut masuk dalam kereta. Huu, patutnya ktorg lepas reception terus gerak g photoshoot. tapi aku memang xnk pegi selagi tak pastikan everything settle kat dewan dulu. Hehe, dengan kepenatan aku mintak sapa yang tinggal tolong aku kutip sekali segala sampah sarap & double check semua meja angkut balik all my centerpieces. hasilnya ktorg gerak lmbt g photoshoot & no thanx to jln ampangs' famous traffic jam ktorg tak sempat habiskn shoot 

but everything happens for a reason, ktorg buat another photoshoot in KL 2 months after.

kesimpulannya, maybe a bit of the bridezilla characteristics had seeped into me, but rasanya aku banyak belajar tuk bersabar (itu apa yang aku rasa je, hehe, cant speak on behalf of my frens/family). untung la vendors aku sebab aku dah berubah, if you had dealed with the aween before, lagi nightmare la hidup korg! Most points, I dont think it was me being a bridezilla, but mostly me being my own wedding planner, xde org yang tahu details of the wedding as well as what was in my head :)

the loveliest thing is, even with all my cerewetness, annoyingness, tantrums and breakdowns, the one most important person stayed with me all the way and comforted me even if he was feeling just (if not more) stressed than i was. im so glad we went thru all this together syg :) it just went to prove we make a kick-ass good team & we cant live without each other eyh?

*i swear to god i miss you so much right now (T_T) *