post-exam boredom

just after my frustrating exam period and having time to waste..i've been thinking, im a very greedy person..it may cause me to lose out in the end but i can't help my ego from taking over.. aishh..
some may think im ungrateful.. but, i have to admit..im pretty afraid of commitment.. maybe i think too much or im trying to protect my feelings from getting hurt but...entah, i dont know anymore...
im in LOVE..but i still have no idea why i feel pressured when it comes to talking about the future, we have so much more obstacles to go through, challenges to test our relationship, but sometimes im afraid the problems may simply come from me..
i just pray my faizal will stick with me as he always has while i get my wires untangled and get myself a life..hehehe..